A miracle, and one day at a time....

Sorry I have not posted in so long. But, I want to thank everyone for their condolences. So many folks I do not know, yet wished us well. I have no words for how it makes me feel that so many thought of us.

I want to share that I did get my miracle. Not the one I was hoping for, but nevertheless, a miracle. The last 2 days before Mom died, things were very unstable. The morning of her death, I got a call to come to the hospital. Jody,my daughter was staying with me, (my sisters have been in CA since they left on Feb 13th.)We tore up there, and without alot of detail, it was very clear that Mom wasn't going to make it. I had discussed code status with nurses, docs, family. She was to be a DNR but supportive measures,meds for BP, etc. The cardiologist was doing his best to figure out ways to get her kidneys to working. (I love him. He is an MD and a PhD in pharmacology research.)
Mom never became comatose. She was rousable. I had noticed her looking off at something I could not see every now and then, but particularly the night of the 10th and morning of the 11th.

She "told"-we lip read-her nurse she saw Jimmy-my Daddy. She told myself and Jody that Daddy was there.


She had had a pretty major heart attack-MI-the afternoon of the 10th. EKG tracings were very suspicious, and cardiac enzymes came back elevated.


All this to get to what was happening the morning of the 11th. I had so many people telling me what I SHOULD do. Some saying-take away all meds. Some saying keep supportive measures going, some saying time to snow&go(medical talk for giving a pt enough morophine that there would be no fear, gasping for breath, discomfort when the vent was discontinued.)


My daughter, being wiser than I thought she was in this area, said, you need to get off by yourself and not listen anymore. You'll know what to do.


So I left the room, and Jody pulled up a chair by her grandmother's bedside, held her hand, and just talked. About anything and everything. Times they had had, (my 2 kids spent more time than most children do with their grandparents),funny things, sad things, just everything.


I got a call on my cell phone about 10 min after I left"Mom, You have to get right back".When I got there, Mom had left. Her heart just stopped. I didn't have to make any further decision, God and Mom did that for me. Jody said she knew exactly when Mom had left, she was holding her hand and she described it as a feeling of energy, then great peace going through her.(All monitors had been turned off)


So I did get a miracle. And I know Daddy and the angels took her on Home.



Also, after spending days, I found a veterinary clinic in Houston that would take her pacemaker. That has been mailed to them. (It had only been used from 2/2 to 3/11) I hope some cool dog gets it. I hope they will let me know if one does.



There is so much. I am going to have to start another blog for everything about this. It will be a private one, but if some of you want the address, I will let you know it. (Gotta figure out how to do it too...)
The pups want to get back to their friends and have done a few things they want you to know about, so this will turn back into Sunny & Scooter's place.


Sunny and Scooter will be posting in a day or 2.

Again, thank you for all your thoughts and wishes and prayers.

Hugs and love to you all,
Jamie
ps if you do want to read the other blog, please email me, ok? that way I can keep better track. Also, if you know how to do this-start another blog, have it private, please let me know that,k? Thanks
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