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Thursday, March 26, 2009

A miracle, and one day at a time....


Sorry I have not posted in so long. But, I want to thank everyone for their condolences. So many folks I do not know, yet wished us well. I have no words for how it makes me feel that so many thought of us.

I want to share that I did get my miracle. Not the one I was hoping for, but nevertheless, a miracle. The last 2 days before Mom died, things were very unstable. The morning of her death, I got a call to come to the hospital. Jody,my daughter was staying with me, (my sisters have been in CA since they left on Feb 13th.)We tore up there, and without alot of detail, it was very clear that Mom wasn't going to make it. I had discussed code status with nurses, docs, family. She was to be a DNR but supportive measures,meds for BP, etc. The cardiologist was doing his best to figure out ways to get her kidneys to working. (I love him. He is an MD and a PhD in pharmacology research.)
Mom never became comatose. She was rousable. I had noticed her looking off at something I could not see every now and then, but particularly the night of the 10th and morning of the 11th.

She "told"-we lip read-her nurse she saw Jimmy-my Daddy. She told myself and Jody that Daddy was there.


She had had a pretty major heart attack-MI-the afternoon of the 10th. EKG tracings were very suspicious, and cardiac enzymes came back elevated.


All this to get to what was happening the morning of the 11th. I had so many people telling me what I SHOULD do. Some saying-take away all meds. Some saying keep supportive measures going, some saying time to snow&go(medical talk for giving a pt enough morophine that there would be no fear, gasping for breath, discomfort when the vent was discontinued.)


My daughter, being wiser than I thought she was in this area, said, you need to get off by yourself and not listen anymore. You'll know what to do.


So I left the room, and Jody pulled up a chair by her grandmother's bedside, held her hand, and just talked. About anything and everything. Times they had had, (my 2 kids spent more time than most children do with their grandparents),funny things, sad things, just everything.


I got a call on my cell phone about 10 min after I left"Mom, You have to get right back".When I got there, Mom had left. Her heart just stopped. I didn't have to make any further decision, God and Mom did that for me. Jody said she knew exactly when Mom had left, she was holding her hand and she described it as a feeling of energy, then great peace going through her.(All monitors had been turned off)


So I did get a miracle. And I know Daddy and the angels took her on Home.



Also, after spending days, I found a veterinary clinic in Houston that would take her pacemaker. That has been mailed to them. (It had only been used from 2/2 to 3/11) I hope some cool dog gets it. I hope they will let me know if one does.



There is so much. I am going to have to start another blog for everything about this. It will be a private one, but if some of you want the address, I will let you know it. (Gotta figure out how to do it too...)
The pups want to get back to their friends and have done a few things they want you to know about, so this will turn back into Sunny & Scooter's place.


Sunny and Scooter will be posting in a day or 2.

Again, thank you for all your thoughts and wishes and prayers.

Hugs and love to you all,
Jamie
ps if you do want to read the other blog, please email me, ok? that way I can keep better track. Also, if you know how to do this-start another blog, have it private, please let me know that,k? Thanks
the texas sun dog at g mail dot com

31 comments:

Coco - The Princess said...

Jamie, i am so happy to hear from you. We miss and love you so much. I am glad that you have found peace.

Tail Wiggles & Puppy Kisses,

LeeTal & Coco - The Princess

Opy - the Original GruffPuppy said...

Hi Jamie,

Sending you lots of love and hugs - our hearts are heavy for all that you have went through lately.

But, I am so greatful that you found a Vet place to take your mum's pacemaker - thankyou - you will make some pup like Charlie's life complete again.

I would love to look in on your other blog, if you would have me - you know my email, invite me if you wish :)

lots of love,

Brooke, Opy, Charlie & Greg

Maggie and Mitch said...

We're sending lots of hugs to you, Miss Jamie! We have missed you!

Love ya lots,
Maggie and Mitch

Khyra The Siberian Husky said...

Mom is leaky here -

That was such a pawesome thing to share -

It was furry special your daughter was there to let her soul and spirit free -

We've been thinking about you and yours!

As Charlie's peeps pawed, that is pawesome some pup may get one grrrreat pacemaker!

Hugz&Khysses,
Khyra
PeeEssWoo: We'll be in touch at that gmail thingie!

Gus said...

We are sending hugs and kisses to you and your family, and yes, we would love to look in on your private blog. We will email later today about how to do that, I think it is simple, want to check.

Blessings to Jody, who did a beautiful thing when she sent you away.

Barb and Gussie

Abby said...

Hi, Jamie...

We've missed you...

You are in our thoughts & prayers everyday...

Abby & her Mom xxxooo

Penny, Poppy & Patches said...

It's good to hear from you, Jamie! You definitely received a miracle! Your mom is safe and at peace with your dad, now. We will keep our paws crossed for you and your family. We know that it takes a long time to recover from such an ordeal.

Aire-hugs,
Poppy, Penny & Patches

nancyturtle said...

I'm not a dog blogger, but a dog lover with two semi-private blogs. Google makes it easy to start a new blog. Just go to the dashboard at the top of the posting page, then find the link to "Create a Blog". Once you have set up the new blog you can go into settings to make it private. Good luck and thanks for sharing your experience with all of us. We all have to deal with grieving and it helps to share.

Asta said...

Dear Jamie
I'm crying again, I can't help it, but I really feel it was a miraculous outcome to such a sad time for you..I know your Daddi and the angels have your Mom in their arms now..
love you lots

Ata is looking forward to hearing from Sunny and Scooter.
She sends smoochie kisses
love
Ami

Moco said...

I marvel time and time again at the ability that some have to know what they need to do when it is time. I am sure that your mom saw your dad. She was able to make a very important last decision on her own, not leaving it to you. There is some truth to mom knows best.

Mango said...

Jamie,
We are glad to hear that you are feeling sronger. Also for sharing how things have been for you.

Best wishes,
Mango Momma

Joe Stains said...

It is good to hear from you and we are glad things are going ok for you over there. Thanks for sharing the story. We'd love to be a part of the new blog too and we cannot wait to hear from Sunny and SCooter. Many hugs!

Lorenza said...

Thanks for sharing it.
Kisses and hugs
Lorenza

Stella said...

Sweet Jamie!

Thank you for sharing about your Jody and your mama. That was truly some wisdom on her part, and your mama knew she was getting ready to go. Glad to know your dad was waiting for her.

Please accept all of our goob smooches and mojo we're sending your way. We would love to read your blog.

We LOVE YOU GUYS and have missed you. We know you have healing to do, but we're here for ya, girlie.

Please give Sunny & Scooter their share of goob smooches. We can't wait to hear what they've been up to.

Goober love & more smooches,
Lisa (for Stella & the other goob)

Gus, Louie and Callie said...

Oh mom is leaking now. We are so sorry but you know she is with Daddy now.
We would love to read you new blog.
d.brylla at charter dot net.
Keep us in the loop...


Big Sloppy Kisses
Gus, Louie and Callie

Pedro said...

Jamie,

I'm glad you got your miracle. My mom saw my father too before she went. I know when my time comes, my mom will come for me. It's comforting.

Rachel

Dughallmor Beagles said...

Glad to hear from you, it'sgood that you didn't have to make that awful decision...and so awesome that some doggy will get a new lease of life with the pacemaker, I didn't know they do that!
Love and slobbers xx

Dennis the Vizsla said...

Thanks for the post and for letting us know how you're doing. I had no idea they could recycle human pacemakers into dogs, but that's a wonderful thing.

Eric said...

Jamie. What a wise daughter you have,who knew exactly the right you both.I'm so pleased you got a wonderful miracle for your precious Mom. My sincere condolonces to you and your family.

B and Eric

Lacy said...

w00f's, i am glad u we're spared from having to make that decision..and its wonderful u let the vet have her pacemaker...i would love to read ur other blog, i will try to email u, but if it cant go through, remember i answered ya here..ur mom and daddy r happy now..

b safe,
~rocky~

Mack said...

We love you guys and have missed you!

Take it easy and if there is anything at all we can do just let us know!

Mack & his Momma

Petra said...

Hi Jamie,

Thanks for sharing your story. It sounds like we have similar experiences with my dad and your mom's home-going. I'd love to be part of the blog once you get it figure out.

Petra's Motchie

Scruffy, Lacie and Stanley's Place said...

Oh Jamie...this is amazing...I am so glad you got ur miracle...it's so hard...just soo soooo hard when these final moments of someone we love are here and we have to face them...

I had no idea you could donate pacers...that is really really cool...

Let us know how you are doing...we've missed you and the kids!!!!

Love ya lots,
Scruffy, Lac, Stanny and Mumsie

KEY WEST COLLIES said...

Take care of yourself. We are thinking of you.

Essex, Deacon & Dog Dad

Honey said...

Ah! The sweet miracle is wonderful, as it is a very tough time.

We are just visiting your blog, it is wonderful...the front photo of the Texas Sun Dogs is precious.

Cheers! Honey (13 yo golden)
www.supertrooperhoney.blogspot.com

Amber-Mae said...

Good to hear from you again. We hope you & your dogs are doing fine. Please stay strong. We're still thinking of you okay?

Belly jiggles,
Solid Gold Dancer

Lady Kaos said...

That's amazing! We're so happy your daughter was there for you and for her grandmother. We'll send you an email for a invitainot to the private blog.
Love
Kaos & Hilary

The OP Pack said...

This is such a good thing to read. Our Mom had two very similar experiences with the death of her brother and her mother. At the time it is very hard but once you can look back at what happened, you realize how fortunate you were not to have to make those calls and to let your loved ones do things on their own terms.

We wish you all the best in your grieving. Take your time and things will be better.

Woos, the OP Pack

Butchy and Snickers said...

Hi Jamie & Kids,
We are so happy that your Mom went peacefully. These times are so very very hard to deal with for everyone. Never knowing if the right things are being done. The miracle solved everything. Hope to hear from Sunny & Scooter soon!
Luv & Wirey Hugs,
Butchy, Snickers, Ruby, Sylvester & Scuby

Petey said...

Wonderful to hear from you again, Jamie. Indeed you got your miracle and a very special understanding of your amazing daughter. I wish I'd known about donating the pacemaker to a vet, my dad had a defibulator and he'd have loved the idea of giving a dog a new life.

You're close by in my prayers.

Love,

Jane and Petey

Clover said...

Hi Jamie,
Thanks for sharing with us about that miracle. I am so sorry about the loss of your mother and Clover wants me to tell you that she is sending lots and lots of love and snuggles your way.
Our blog is gone right now, but we will come let you know where to find us when we are back.
Love Jess xo