I'm sorry. I know everyone is mourning Klaus(as are we) No, Mom is not dead. But she "told" me tonight that she was not going to try anymore(she hasn't been much) to get off the breathing machine. That she still wanted all measures taken(shocking, cpr, etc). And has no problem with going from where she is to a nursing home that takes care of vent patients.(where she will die-closest one is far away-if she won't try anymore she may not live long enough to make it there anyway) I said alot of things. That she was killing me, and could she not think of her daughters(3), grandkids(6) and great grandkids(2) especially Maddy who lives here -who she sees all the time-her other grandson lives in Ca. nope. maybe someday I'll have the energy to relay the whole conversation, but I am all cried out, and tired and, I don't know what else.
I'm sorry to post this right now. And maybe I shouldn't. My heart is breaking. I have never felt so alone in this big world. And I hate saying all this the day after Klaus' passing. I'll be back. Maybe soon, maybe a while. I don't know.