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Sunday, April 5, 2009

Sorry

I want to apologize. I thought Sunny& Scooter would be blogging way sooner than now. My numbness left shortly after I blogged last. Right now I have some kind of crud(not unusual for stress to manifest physically) I do what I must do and just collapse. My sisters are not coming til May 22. So, all the CRAP that one has to do when someone passes is me. I guess When I picked up Mom's "cremains" must be when I just realized everything. Lawyer to probate(tho Mom does not have much-not inheritance tax in TX unless a million dollar estate. Mostly this dam duplex she bought 2 years ago in Aug which is a money pit and is going to someday be torn down for freeway expansion. Too bad it is not now) Anyhow, even if I could afford it, I can't stay here. Too hard. She will be interred in Ft Sam Houston National Cem with my Daddy.(San Antonio) on May 22 at 2. Meanwhile, the urn is on the mantle on her side besides Daddy's folded flag. I have to go take care of her 2 dogs several times a day, (my sister will take them when she comes) I don't bring them over here, because I would never sleep, which is hard enough now. Since it has been nearly 2 years since we all lived in the same house the barking howling, etc. Besides, I want to try to keep things as normal as I can for them(I hate it-they were looking for mom starting in Jan, since she died, well, they just know something)
Mom's taxes, can't find the title to her car(she hasn't driven due to her sight for about 4 yrs, but wouldn't sell the car...
Whoa. sorry again. just carried on & on. I guess there is something about not havin parents anymore. (Yep-I know lots of people do not-but it is new to me)
I want to post about the dog show I went to on the 21st. I will try to get the umph tomorrow.
Sunny&Scooter are good. tired of the salty baths.. ha Irony for you-my son got orders for Korea right before Mom died. If you watch the news, you will see the dam irony. I gotta keep looking at that arrow on my fence... ha
I said about my Daddy. You never get over it, but you learn to live with it. I am trying to learn to live with it and moving, and seeing if I can get some sort of case manager nursing job with the problems I have.
Thanks for listenin...
Hugs
Jamie
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20 comments:

Gus said...

Whew...it is a relief to hear from you, even just a tiny bit. Good to hear that Sunny and Scooter are OK, and know that you are getting by, even if just day to day.

With a 95 year old aunt, I am well aware of the challenges that will be mine at some point, dealing with all the "stuff" that marks death in our society. Perhaps I can learn something from your journey that will help me work through mine.

Just try to take a minute or two each day to remember one thing or time you loved about your mom, and use that to help you through the rest of it.

Hugs to you, and to Sunny and Scooter.

Barb, Gussie and Teka toy

Mango said...

You are carrying a lot of weight right now. I don't have any words of wisdom as this is an ordeal that I still have in front of me. I hope having your sister there will help.

What a pain that stress can give you the crud on top of everything else. I hope you can find some time to heal. Be gentle with yourself.

Mango Momma

Khyra The Siberian Husky And Sometimes Her Mom said...

WOW!

Gussie, Teka, and Mango have some furry wise moms...

We are still thinking about woo and yours!

Hugz&Khysses,
Khyra

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KEY WEST COLLIES said...

You keep going. Dog Dad did a year in Korea, interesting place. Hope the world stays sane, but we're not going to hold our breath. Fortunately we keep dog dad sane.

Dog Speed,

Essex & Deacon

Lorenza said...

Hi, Jamie.
We understand life is not easy for you right now. Gus's mom is right. Don't stress too much. Take care of yourself.
Kisses and hugs to you, Sunny and Scooter.
Lorenza

Maggie and Mitch said...

We are praying for you, Miss Jamie! You have a tough job to get through!

Love ya lots,
Maggie and Mitch

Jake of Florida said...

We don't have any other words of wisdom -- but just wanted to send you a few caring/healing wirey barks!!!

Jake and Just Harry

Gus, Louie and Callie said...

Oh Jamie we understand. It has to be really hard. Mom lost her brother in 1998 and she was devastated.. We are sure things will be back to normal in no time..

Big Sloppy Kisses
Gus, Louie and Callie

Joe Stains said...

We are so glad to hear from you, and ya its hard to go on after losing your parents for sure. But you figure it out and once all the paperwork and logistical stuff is done we hope things start to smooth out for you guys.

Dennis the Vizsla said...

You don't have anything to apologize for -- this is a very tough time, for sure!

with love, Madison said...

Just do what you can and keep moving forward. It will get easier and you will figure things out. Hug your dogs, love life, cherish memories.

Rambo said...

Hang in there Sunny & Scooter's mama!
Rambo the chi

Penny, Poppy & Patches said...

We're always her to listen, Jamie! We know you are going through a very rough time. Today is 4 years since our mom's mom passed away and Mom's having a pretty rough day! Like you said, the grief never goes away, it just gets easier to deal with.

Aire-hugs,
Poppy, Penny & Patches

Deetz said...

We are always here to listen. Never apologize.
Deetzy

Petra said...

Oh, Jamie, I'm so sorry that you're having to go through this. Life is hard.

Take one day at a time, dear friend, just one day at a time. And keep looking at the arrow, through the tears and sorrow and frustration and pain.

Butchy and Snickers said...

Hey Jamie & kids,
So sorry you have to go through all of these things. They are very stressful, no matter the situation. Lawyer stuff gets very old too. Just take your time & remember to relax. Don't let yourself get sick. Hope you have a nice week.
Luv & Wirey Hugs,
Butchy, Snickers, Ruby, Sylvester & Scuby

Moco said...

Take it one second at a time if that is what you need to do. Everyone gets through tragedy at their own pace. Don't let anyone hurry you. Take care of yourself and know that we think of all of you often.

Stanley said...

Sweet Miss Jamie!

I'm SO GLAD you posted to tell us what you're thinking and all that you have had to deal with. Please take care of yourself, and give plenty of goob smooches to YOUR two goobers from us... as often as you can.

I wish I could give you a nice Stanley hug. They are rare, but when I give them, you know you've been good and hugged!

Goober love & smooches,
Stanley

Amber-Mae said...

Sorry to hear that you're still having a rough time. We're still thinking about you & your dogs. Please take care.

Butt sniffs,
Solid Gold Dancer