Bye for now, Mom

Mom left this world on 3/11/09 at 11:29 a.m. The rollar coaster ride has stopped, I guess. I just feel numb.

We'll be seeing you soon Mom. You must be so happy to be with Daddy again.

Sunny, Scooter & I will be back soon. Just a little time, or maybe not much. Who ever knows??

Since I am making no sense at all, let me just thank all of you for your prayers, wishes, vibes, zen,purrs, alll the support.

Hugs

Jamie, Sunny&Scooter

Petra's grammpa went to heaven

hay guz. mi poor petra pot pie's grammpa went to heaven on 3/7. Please leave some love for mi gurlfren an her family. (As u may no, taddy and figgy r hur cuzins or sumpfing.
sinz i doan spel so wel, sunny will finish. sad liks to u mi petrapot pie.
We all hope Petra(& Taddy & Figgy's) family know we have prayed for and with them. We are so sorr Motch, Pappy and all you fur and skin kids.
God Bless you
Sunny&Jamie

Mom wants ice cream!!! And a quiz, if you dare! heh

Here's my MOM!! and her 3 children.(Pay attention-you will have a quiz on this pic) :)

Since this roller coaster goes up and down, I am determined to enjoy any upward direction. (Hey, you take your joys when you can, no matter how large or small.....) Mom wants ice cream!!!! (She' ll get it too. She can let ice chips melt in her mouth, the speech therapist gave her chocolate pudding last week- Mom said "WOW" (When I say that Mom "said" something, we lipread. She is not writing as much) They thought(and so did I she'd be zonked out today after yesterday, but she is smiling at her nurse, asking for ice cream, and wanting to sit up on the side of the bed(she was sposed to yesterday, but, you know what happened)

So, I take my good day-it is beautiful outside, and who knows what will happen?

That arrow on my fence? Reminds me as I look at it everday now, that God(by whatever name you call Him) is in control and really, all I can do is pray. He loves us all, and never gives us more than we can handle. (though sooo often we all think he does! )

My sweet daughter came to stay with me last night and is here today. Jody-you are a blessing.

Now for the quiz-this is a pic of my Mom on her 80th birthday. All 3 of her daughters are with her. Can you guess which one is me???

Hugs,

Jamie and the keds

AHEM-"THE KIDS??????" Is this a DOG BLOG?? Hmmmphh "the kids....mutter...after all I do for that woman...mutter,mutter mutter scooter let's just go sulk a good long time. see how she likes it. the kids indeed....sunny

quicky update

Mom has become more positve which makes me happy. However I got a call today from the hospital(geez-if I don't faint and fall out over this phone call stuff one day...heh) Anyhow, they wanted me to come up due to a "change in her condition" WHAT DO YOU MEAN?????
Long story short, BP had bottomed out, Blood gases were ALL out of whack. When I got there and saw the crash cart in her room, gulp-but it was there for "in case". They gave her an IV drug to bring her BP up and changed the vent settings. Tonight she is stable.
So, the roller coaster refuses to stop......but, one day at the time.
I don't even know what to wish for anymore, so I pray as one should. Not my will, Lord, but yours. All I know to do.
Thanks so much to everyone. And I want to do a post for Lulu and Klaus. By her stories,(gosh I laughed at the 666- Way to get her attention, Klaus!!) She is helping me-you all are, but just someone that is right here, right now with all the same crap, somehow helps.....
We love and appreciate you all.(dropped my cell phone in Sunny's water bucket-crap-it may be a goner...)
God Bless you all, and thank you all so much for helping us feel better.
Hugs
Jamie

clarification about respecting Mom's wishes

to the 4 Bs: I have tried to honor each and every request my mom has. I have medical power of attorney. she had told me MANY times she did not want to live on machines. At the time of her code,(which involved compressions, not shocking ,as she went flat line 3 times, had she made herself a DNR she would have gotton that request honored) Hell, I felt guilty she was on the vent, but 3 docs told me she could get off. She is making herself full code now(one of my questions for her yesterday) and I am respecting that.(She nodded yes to are you afraid of dying?) That is one thing I will ALWAYS do-respect her wishes, even if it meant pulling the plug.). But I also will tell her what I think of her decision to give up and veg out on a machine in a blankety nursing home. Most of which are so understaffed that they are hell on earth... just wanted it clarified. I know it is her life, but, I do not know if she is thinking clearly, and it DOES affect all of her family. As an ICU nurse, I know there are much worse things than dying. But so be it as far as Mom's requests go. I will honor them-always.
Thanks to all of you, hugs,
Jamie
pee ess I don't mean to sound angry. 4 B's I love your poodle guys, just wanted to clarify.

More than I can handle for now

I'm sorry. I know everyone is mourning Klaus(as are we) No, Mom is not dead. But she "told" me tonight that she was not going to try anymore(she hasn't been much) to get off the breathing machine. That she still wanted all measures taken(shocking, cpr, etc). And has no problem with going from where she is to a nursing home that takes care of vent patients.(where she will die-closest one is far away-if she won't try anymore she may not live long enough to make it there anyway) I said alot of things. That she was killing me, and could she not think of her daughters(3), grandkids(6) and great grandkids(2) especially Maddy who lives here -who she sees all the time-her other grandson lives in Ca. nope. maybe someday I'll have the energy to relay the whole conversation, but I am all cried out, and tired and, I don't know what else.
I'm sorry to post this right now. And maybe I shouldn't. My heart is breaking. I have never felt so alone in this big world. And I hate saying all this the day after Klaus' passing. I'll be back. Maybe soon, maybe a while. I don't know.

Heads respectfully bowed for Klaus

I got home and found out the terrible news

We are so sad to learn about Klaus. The dogs and I respectfully bow our heads in his honor. God has a new angel now. Our heart breaks for Lulu and Bogart.

I feel as though I have lost a friend, and that another of my friends is in such pain I would do anything to help. Amazing how close we can all be to our fellow DWBers. We love you Lulu. If you need anything, let us know. We are here for you.

Sad licks from Sunny&Scooter

Sad tears and hugs for you and Bogie, Lulu.