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Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Heavy Hearts Today for Shamus


It is with a broken heart that I tell y'all that Shamus left us for the bridge yesterday just 1 week short of his 9 month birthday.  He left cradled in my arms as I soaked him with tears yet told him who to look up and I would see him soon.  This is very hard today so it won't be long.
He had (as we found out)neurological problems that grew worse as he got older.  All I know is I tried everything I could and the last months I have not been around have been mostly due to trying everything under the sun.   It hurts to put down any dog but NEVER have I had to go through it with a puppy.
Just in case any one has anything to say about did I try this or that, let me ask you DO NOT PLEASE.   If I could have avoided this God knows I would have. 
I guess just sometimess**T and lots of it happens.  Since I have had to stop several times already and can't stop the tears writing about it(it is just now 24 hours) is too much.  I hate it but I have always believed I owe my dogs the best.  The best of care.  Even if that means I have to release him though i hurt.
He went more peaceful than he has been for some time now.
      
           I'LL WAIT FOR YOU
I got to the gate of Heaven today
after we said goodbye.
I began to miss you terribly
because I heard you cry.
Suddenly ther was an Angel
and she asked me to enter Heaven's gate.
I asked her if I could stay outside
for someone who would be late.
"I wouldn't make much noise you see.
I wouldn't bark or howl.
I'd only sit here patiently and play with my tennis ball."
The angel said I could stay right there
And wait for you to come.
Because Heaven wouldn't be Heaven,
if I went in alone.
You take your time, but keep me in your heart.
Because Heaven won't be Heaven,
without you to warm my heart.
ANON
Shamus loves balls tennis balls. Actually all of them.  I will keep him in my heart.

36 comments:

Pearl said...

Oh miss Jamie, my heart aches for you.

You are in my prayers as you grieve the loss of sweet Shamus.

Maggie and Mitch said...

Oh, Jamie! We are so very, very sorry! You have been through so much and now this. Our hearts are breaking for you.
((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))

Love ya lots,
Maggie, Mitch and Sue

Frankie Furter said...

I am so very much sorry for your loss. Please know that my paws are crossed for you in this sad time.

houndstooth said...

I am so terribly sorry! I know your heart must be aching terribly. There's no easy way to lose someone you love, but some are certainly much more painful than others. Our prayers are with you!

Khyra The Siberian Husky And Sometimes Her Mom said...

Oh no...

We are so sorry for your loss...

Yet we are proud you shared this with us for we know how raw and real the pain is right now...

Please know you've got lots of arms around you from all over the world...

You gave him the best gift of love he could ever know for it cost you the most...

Hugz&Khysses,
Khyra & Phyll

Mango said...

That is just so heartbreaking when such a young pup just doesn't have the basic health he needs to survive into adulthood. I know that you did all you could and that you loved him dearly and always kept his needs first. He trusted you not to let him suffer and you honored that trust.

Mango Momma

TwoSpecialWires said...

Jamie. This breaks our heart. What a very sad way for us to become reunited. We hope that our little presence and message assures you that another family understands your pain, wants to support you and wishes you comfort in knowing that you have given Shamus the gift of love and a forever bond. He'll be waiting for you ... and you'll always carry him with you.

Love and tender wirey wishes
Jake and Fergi, MomaSally (and NinaGirl ... she'd want us to include her, for sure)

Lacy said...

sad woofs, ooo Jamie..i am soo sorry...and yes i know u did ur best.a lot more than some would have..at least now u know, it was medical problems...RIP Shamus, run with the wind..

a sad,
rocky
bear
angel lacylulu
and mama..

Butchy, Ruby, Sylvester, Scuby, Hootie said...

Oh Jamie, we are so sorry about Shamus. You are not alone, Mama had to put down her JRT Eddie at 6 months old. He was having horrible brain seizures one morning where he would attack Mama one minute, not even know who she was, the next minute be fine. This went back & forth for several hours & was getting much worse. The vet said he had brain seizures from a tumor & it would only get worse. We just don't know why our babies get so sick sometimes. We know Angel Snickers was there to meet Shamus in heaven. Our thoughts & prayers are with you.
Wirey Hugs, Purrz & Licks,
Butchy, Ruby, Sylvester, Scuby & Hootie

Cocorue said...

we are so very sorry and we feel your pain. do take care of yourself now as you have been through so much.

chikisses
Coco, Tiffy & mmumster lilian

Beckett said...

Jamie, Sunny, and Scooter,

We are so sorry for you loss.

Beckett and his mom

Jake of Florida said...

Jamie,

We're so sorry to hear the sad news about Shamus -- especially coming after so much else you've been through.
You're right -- the DWB brings joy -- and pain -- laughter-- and sorrow -- but most of all, comfort that you're not alone.

Wirey love,

Jake and Just Harry, and Mom Joan,

Peppy Sheppys said...

Oh no. We are so sorry for your loss but glad that Shamus knew so much love while he was with you. Big hugs to all of you.

The Sheps + Otis.

Ruby and Penny said...

Shamus will always be alive in your heart. Hugs to you all.
Love Ruby & Penny

The OP Pack said...

what a heartbreak for you - we are all so very sorry to hear this sad news. It is so hard to let go even when you know you are doing what is best for him. Godspeed, sweet Shamus.

Woos - Phantom, Thunder, and Ciara

River said...

We are so sorry to hear about Shamus. He is now playing with all our angel beagles and feeling good! Bless you, we send many many hugs.

love & wags,
River & mom

Asta said...

Dear Jamie
Mommi and I send you ouw love and suppowt..we know you gave Shamus all youw love and youw heawt is bwaeking we awe too sad to wite mowe..
I hope Shamus is wunning and playing wif his balls till you meet again
smoochie kisses
ASTA and mommi

Raising Addie said...

....tears...

We are so very sorry. We know there isn't much we can say to make things better except that you did the right thing.

He is in the best company now waiting at the bridge.

You will be in our thoughts and prayers.

Lots of Luv & Kisses
Addie, Lucie and Hailey

Lorenza said...

I am so sorry to know about Shamus.
I know you did all you could for him.
Our thoughts are with you.
Take care
Kisses and hugs
Lorenza

Moco said...

We are so sorry to hear about Shamus, but are glad that you were a family for his short time. To love and be loved. Nothing better!

Marvin -The Hollow Hound said...

Dear Jamie

I am so sorry to read this tragic news.

I cannot imagine what you are going through, we will keep you in our hearts across the pond.

Much love, Jeannie and Family.

ps that was a beautiful poem at the end of this post.

Run free sweet Shamus. You were deeply loved and cherished whilst on this earth.

xxxxxxxx

Penny and Patches said...

Jamie, we know you did all you could for Shamus! It's never easy to let a beloved family member go, but there comes a time when you have no choice. He's running free without pain or suffering. We just wish we could say something to end YOUR pain and suffering!

Aire-hugs,
Penny, Patches & Lana

Mack said...

Guys, we are so very sorry. Just know we are sending you all our love and saying lots of prayers for your sweet family.

-Mack & Mom

MAX said...

Dear Jamie!
I am really,really sorry for your loss! My thoughts and prayers are with you...may you be surrounded with love!
MAXMOM IN SA

The Army of Four said...

Jamie, we are so deeply sorry for your loss!!! Cherish what time you did have together - and know that one day, when you are called Home, you will meet again.
God's healing Grace on you -
Karen and the Ao4

Peanut said...

We are so sorry.

Asta said...

I hope you'we huwting a little less today and know that Shamus is fwolicking in heaven like he nevew got to hewe.
Deew Sunny , I'm glad you liked my Pawis adventoowes and Scootew, I aways blush when you wite me. You just know how to make a giwl feel loved
smoochie kisses
ASTA

Eric said...

How tragic, poor little Shamus, poor you. Our hearts, paws and arms stretch out to give you any comfort we can.

Love and Kisses Eric and his Mom xxx

Sally said...

We were so very sorry to hear about Shamus - all our love and hugs are with you -
Sally and Paddy and D

Noah the Airedale said...

Oh no, such sad news. We are very sorry you had to go through this Jamie. Our hearts go out to you.

Denise Noah Willow Tess Lucy xx

Mack said...

P(ee)S: Lilly says anytime Scooter is ready for another date, she is too!

Sugars,
Hope you are feeling better,
Mack

SGR said...

Woof! Woof! We are so heartbreaking for your loss. In regards to you comment on my blog ... mom apologize but she can't remember about NY Chat ??? We are in Chicago. Sending you my Golden Healing Thoughts for your loss of Shamus. Lots of Golden Woofs, Sugar

Dennis the Vizsla said...

Aw, so sorry to hear about Shamus. It's never easy to lose a friend, especially one so young. :-(

Scruffy, Lacie and Stanley's Place said...

Oh Jaime...our hearts are breaking at this sad news...

We don't know why this stuff has to happen and how we wish it wouldn't...

Many arms are around you all right now...

We'll be keeping you in our prayers...


Shamus has so many friends meeting him at the Bridge...a comfort for sure...

Hugs and sad tears...

Scruffy, Lacie, Stan and Mumsie

the 4 Bs said...

we are so very sorry to hear about Shamus. it breaks our hearts too, when a puppy departs this life. we lost a 3 month old puppy 5 years ago and our mom still grieves for her. we are sending you lots and lots of poodle hugs and people hugs and licks and all of the comfort that we can muster. we are so sorry.

sad woofs. from your 4B friends and our mom

Asta said...

Sunny and Scootew and auntie Jamie

We awe still heawtbwoken about Shamus..Mommi said she will make youw pictoowe of angel Shamus as soon as she can..sowwy about not calling..she is jammed wif wowk. We love you lots and have you in ouw heawts
smoochie kisses
ASTA