Heavy Hearts Today for Shamus

It is with a broken heart that I tell y'all that Shamus left us for the bridge yesterday just 1 week short of his 9 month birthday.  He left cradled in my arms as I soaked him with tears yet told him who to look up and I would see him soon.  This is very hard today so it won't be long.
He had (as we found out)neurological problems that grew worse as he got older.  All I know is I tried everything I could and the last months I have not been around have been mostly due to trying everything under the sun.   It hurts to put down any dog but NEVER have I had to go through it with a puppy.
Just in case any one has anything to say about did I try this or that, let me ask you DO NOT PLEASE.   If I could have avoided this God knows I would have. 
I guess just sometimess**T and lots of it happens.  Since I have had to stop several times already and can't stop the tears writing about it(it is just now 24 hours) is too much.  I hate it but I have always believed I owe my dogs the best.  The best of care.  Even if that means I have to release him though i hurt.
He went more peaceful than he has been for some time now.
      
           I'LL WAIT FOR YOU
I got to the gate of Heaven today
after we said goodbye.
I began to miss you terribly
because I heard you cry.
Suddenly ther was an Angel
and she asked me to enter Heaven's gate.
I asked her if I could stay outside
for someone who would be late.
"I wouldn't make much noise you see.
I wouldn't bark or howl.
I'd only sit here patiently and play with my tennis ball."
The angel said I could stay right there
And wait for you to come.
Because Heaven wouldn't be Heaven,
if I went in alone.
You take your time, but keep me in your heart.
Because Heaven won't be Heaven,
without you to warm my heart.
ANON
Shamus loves balls tennis balls. Actually all of them.  I will keep him in my heart.